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Personal Kosmology

Seeking Stories that Unite

Long-form conversations about the stories we live inside — one life at a time.

Can people fundamentally change?

After more than 15,000 hours coaching people one‑on‑one, I am certain they can.

Each episode traces one seeker's journey: the beliefs they inherited, the experiences that broke them open, and the questions they're still living. I'm drawn to people who didn't just change their minds, but rebuilt their lives around what they found.

In their stories, you may recognise your own.

Devin Martin — host

Each conversation is one point of light.

Alone, a single life can seem private, idiosyncratic, even strange. Place enough of them beside one another and patterns begin to appear. A line appears wherever two lives are living the same question.

Mark Gober  ·  Season 01, Episode 01

From investment banker to consciousness researcher

Mark did everything right. Princeton, the D1 tennis captaincy, a Wall Street career. And still he arrived at a life that felt empty. Then a rabbit hole of rigorous science, and a banner in an ibogaine vision, undid everything he thought was real.

Consciousness · Science · Spirituality · Psychedelics · Philosophy

All conversations

The shape of each conversation

Every episode is a long-form conversation organised around three movements.

  1. The world a guest inherited

    What were they taught to believe was good, true, and beautiful? What was sacred? What was shameful? What was possible? What was never questioned?

  2. The moments that cracked it open

    These may come through awe, grief, trauma, psychedelics, falling in love, failure, illness, parenthood, scientific wonder, alien encounters, spiritual experience, beauty, death, or success that did not satisfy.

  3. The living edge of what they believe now

    What do they still wonder about? What do they no longer dismiss? What do they hope is true? What do they fear may be true? What mysteries are they currently living?

The conversations move through science, spirituality, religion, psychedelics, psychology, metaphysics, cosmology, trauma, money, sex, power, psychics, aliens, grief, beauty, and death. Nothing is outside the inquiry. But the tone is never solemn — these conversations are intimate, serious, playful, strange, and alive.

Cosmology with a C is the story of the external universe. Kosmology with a K includes the stories we live inside.

Cosmology usually points to the physical universe: stars, galaxies, matter, time. Kosmology is an archaic revival, a way of pointing back toward kosmos: world, order, harmony, and meaningful arrangement. As I am using it, Kosmology includes the outer universe, but also the inner one: consciousness, meaning, morality, beauty, longing, suffering, love, and the felt sense of being alive.

This is not just a podcast about what people believe. It is about how they came to believe it, what those beliefs have cost them, what they have given them, and how those beliefs continue to evolve.

From private conversations
to public inquiry

For almost two decades, my work has happened behind closed doors. As a coach focused on personal and professional transformation, I have sat with people at the edges of their ambition, grief, power, longing, confusion, success, shame, love, and becoming.

In private, I get to witness a rare kind of beauty: the moment someone tells their truth more plainly than they ever have before; the moment an inherited story begins to loosen; the moment something more honest, alive, and whole begins to emerge.

I want to share that beauty.

And honestly, that scares me.

My clients are often rich, powerful, and in the public eye. I am used to being the person behind the scenes. My work is intimate, and protected. It is not unusual for people I have just met to tell me something they have rarely, or never, said out loud.

Over time, I have come to trust this as one of my gifts. I hold space for what longs to be shared, and I can often sense the pattern beneath the thread: the belief underneath the story, the wound below the strategy, the longing driving the achievement, the question betraying the professed certainty.

Devin Martin
I listen for the place where someone's current story stops working, and where a deeper truth is trying to come through.

The longer essay behind the show — inherited worlds, the crisis of shared story, and why this project stopped being about my own.

Every person lives inside a kosmology: a story about who they are, what is real, what matters, and what they owe the world. These stories bind us, and they divide us. Personal Kosmology is a podcast that listens to them, one life at a time, in search of something deep enough to share.

The worlds we inherit

Each of us inherits a world before we know we have inherited anything.

We are taught what is good, what is true, what is beautiful, what is shameful, what is possible, what is sacred, what is nonsense, what is worth wanting, what to fear, and what to do.

Long before we form our own philosophy, we are living inside one.

These stories give us belonging, identity, direction, and meaning. But every story also draws a boundary around what it can see, value, and include. Every in‑group generates an out‑group.

To become wiser stewards of this beautiful rock flying through space, we will need more than better technologies. We will need better stories about what human beings are, what the world is, and what is worth serving. The goal is not to erase our differences, but to discover stories deep enough to hold them.

The crisis of shared story

Religion still coheres billions of people. It gives language to grief, beauty, sacrifice, morality, and the sacred. But religious stories often bind one community by distinguishing it from another.

Some call science a new religion. Science gives us one of humanity's most powerful universal stories. It tells us about matter, energy, evolution, galaxies, bodies, brains, and deep time. But science, by design, is less equipped to tell us what is sacred, what is beautiful, what is worth loving, or how we should live.

The tension between science and spirituality is a gift we are struggling to unwrap.

For most of history, religion held the power and science fought for air. Today the positions have reversed: “science is real” has become its own dogma, a way of dismissing what is not yet consensus. Each story carries truth the other can't see.

Modernity did something necessary: it separated science from religion, church from state, fact from dogma. But separation is not the final stage of maturity. What has been differentiated must now be integrated; brought back into wiser relationship.

Technology alone cannot solve the problems technology creates. Our power has outpaced our wisdom. Intelligence needs conscience. Innovation needs orientation. Beauty is not decoration; often it is our best guide.

I am not searching for a new religion or a universal ideology, but for a deeper story, one capable of honouring both the subjective and the objective, both individuality and interdependence. That story will not be delivered by a prophet, an institution, or an argument. I think it arrives through conversations. This podcast is here to host them.

After Atheism

For a while, I imagined this project under the name After Atheism. That name still points to part of my own story and is the title of the book I am writing about it. It names a movement beyond a worldview in which the sacred had become unavailable, unbelievable, and embarrassing.

In my twenties, I had a profound spiritual experience that did not fit inside the world I had inherited. I could neither dismiss it nor make sense of it. That rupture became part of a dark night that lasted for years full of depression during which I came frighteningly close to ending my life.

Learning to hold experiences that my existing worldview could not explain changed the course of my life. Helping other people navigate those moments, when an old story collapses and a new one has not yet formed, became an animating force behind my work.

But the deeper I got into this project, the more I realised the podcast is not ultimately about my story. It is about everyone's.

An invitation

My hope is that listeners will not only hear the kosmologies of my guests. They will begin to notice their own. What did I inherit? What have I outgrown? What remains sacred to me? What story am I still living inside?

I am less interested in the next guru than in the next community; less interested in one enlightened voice than in a constellation of voices learning how to hear one another and see themselves in each other.

We cannot find harmony without a chorus.

Follow the constellation as it forms.

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